Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: breaking up isn’t always hard to do

December 15, 2021 Dear You, I think it’s time we see other people. You see new patients and I will see a new therapist. It’s not me, it’s you. You’re just not “the one”. Sure, we had some good times and you gave me some useful “nuggets” that I will take with me, but we … Continue reading Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: breaking up isn’t always hard to do →

Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: I hate goodbyes

December 10, 2021 If you did not read the title in the voice of Jim Carrey from Dumb & Dumber…I don’t think we can be friends. Today I said goodbye to my neurologist and it’s not only heartbreaking, it’s scary. I don’t expect many people to understand how I’m feeling regarding her departure, and until … Continue reading Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: I hate goodbyes →

Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: share the road

November 3, 2021 At counseling we’ve been discussing and breaking down my immense fear of cycling. Yes, I still ride, but I’m terrified while doing it and some days that fear keeps me off the bike completely. I don’t want to be afraid and it was important to me to get back on the bike … Continue reading Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: share the road →

Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: talk to me

October 14, 2021 This past summer, after a round of testing, it was brought to my attention that my PTSD was worse than I’d ever let on and/or that the doctors ever realized. It was then recommended to me that I go to therapy because clearly, my way of coping/dealing was not working. My first … Continue reading Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: talk to me →

Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: a heavy load

September 25, 2021 Just because someone carries it well... I am reminded time and time again how easy it is for others to forget I have a brain injury...I wish I could forget. Others get sick, they get better...I wish it worked the same way for TBI’s. Just because I don’t talk about it, doesn’t … Continue reading Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: a heavy load →

Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: 7 years

August 19, 2021 Seven years. 2,555 days ago a driver decided that crossing into my lane and hitting me with her SUV was more important than waiting 30 seconds. “But Mom, I told you she was there” her son says, as she tries to deny seeing me. “Could you watch your language” she says first … Continue reading Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: 7 years →

Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: Not Today PTSD

July 22, 2021 I have a secret...I haven’t been on my bike in three weeks. Some of that is due to many bad TBI days where I’m just trying to survive the day, but some of it is due to PTSD. The thought of riding makes me panic. It’s a bizarre world to be in; … Continue reading Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: Not Today PTSD →

Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: Make plans and your TBI laughs

June 19, 2021 I woke up this morning with things I wanted to do but my head was not in the mood to cooperate. I stayed in bed a bit longer hoping that would help...nope. I finally got out of bed and moved around slowly, waiting for my brain to be like “ok...we’re up, we’re … Continue reading Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: Make plans and your TBI laughs →

Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: I hope they know

June 14, 2021 Given the choice between seeing your baseball playoffs or staying home, I’d rather see you. Given the choice between watching your piano recital or staying home, I’d rather listen to you play. Given the choice between nighttime badminton, croquet, squirt-gun fights, cuddles on the couch, giggles, or a game of UNO, my … Continue reading Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: I hope they know →

Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: don’t be fooled

May 15, 2021 About two years into my TBI journey I was diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). At my first appointment with the psychologist I was first asked to describe in detail the day I was hit, then I was told “well...to first deal with PTSD you need to confront your fear...you need … Continue reading Confessions of a Concussed Cyclist: don’t be fooled →